Happy

I couldn’t keep my heart from leaping so
I felt the secret I was keeping grow
And when I told you, you were stunned and speechless
On Sunday mornings they don’t preach this, no

I thought God just wanted me to be happy
Why would He want me to live a lie?
I thought God just wanted me to be happy
Why would He want me to so despise myself?

And what of Sr. Mary Josephine?
She realized she was different at sixteen
She needn’t be contrite for what God made her
Her years of chastity have spayed her, oh

I thought God just wanted me to be happy
Why would He want me to live a lie?
I thought God just wanted me to be happy
Why would He want me to so despise myself?

And you say queer person, black person,
hey, I got your back, person; yeah yeah, right on
But then queer person, black person
gonna have my grandchildren... wait wait, hold on

And what if I fall in with whom you fear?
Will you accept whomever I hold dear?
Will you be ashamed to show our wedding portrait?
Will you call us “friends” and turn a shade of scarlet?

I thought God just wanted me to be happy
Why would He want me to live a lie?
I thought God just wanted me to be happy
Why would He want me to so despise myself?

And if you think that it’ll change me,
genome rearrange me, you’re so wrong
If you think my heart won’t open to let any hope in,
well don’t hold your breath for too long